Today is my mom’s birthday! Happy birthday, Mom!!
Every year I struggle with what to get her. She’s the kind of woman whose love language isn’t “stuff”…and it’s taken me a while (38 years) to figure out that she isn’t “just saying that”…she really doesn’t want me to get her anything. This frustrates me, as MY love language does include gifts, no matter how simple. I love shopping for, giving, and receiving gifts. But now that I’m a big girl, it’s time for me to think outside of my own language, and try to give other people what THEY need. (Life lesson #9,684,837,285,969: Loving people the way THEY need to be loved. More on that another time.)
So, today’s blog is dedicated to you, mom. For all you’ve been for me, for all you’ve done for me, for all the times you’ve picked me up when I’ve fallen, and for all the times you’ve stood by and let me do it myself, quietly supporting me nearby. This is for you.
Top 10 Reasons I’m Glad You’re My Mom
10. You were (and are) willing to put up with all sorts of gross life things (pregnancy, birth, diapers, various and sundry illnesses, messy rooms…) Sorry for all the times I did gross things on you, said gross things to you, made you clean up gross things…I’m thinking specifically of that stomach flu that left its mark on the stairs, and all over the bathroom. Sorry. I love you.
9. You never let me get away with “it”, but never let me think I was bad. Why did I think I could smoke IN THE HOUSE, and nothing would happen??? Sorry *hangs head in shame*
8. You carted me around all over creation. Gymnastics, dance, friends’ houses, school, events, doctors appointments, band concerts, camp…shall I continue? You probably put 100,000 miles on the car just dealing with all my “stuff”. Thank you.
7. You made sure I had family, and friends that were family. Thanks for making sure I had strong relationships my my Saba and Safta, spent time with all my aunts and uncles and cousins…and for building great friendships with people like Judy and Earl, Fielding and Helen, Deb and Bill, Emil and Jeanie, Jean and Jeff, Martha…so I always had people. Great people who made me feel loved and valued, and part of something bigger.
6. You taught me that women are powerful…except when it comes to mice. We could do anything. The two of us moved that hide-a-bed up the stairs (or down?), you drilled and hammered and nailed and planted and fixed and fixed and fixed (sorry for breaking so much stuff!) and taught me that we were strong and independent…but there was that one little mouse that sent us both screaming. Then you taught me that it’s ok to ask for help when you’ve reached your limit. I’ll never forget watching Fielding slip that poor little mousie into his pocket…
5. You provided me with boundaries. Even when I shouted and screamed and threw things. You provided more boundaries, and held them, even as I raged against them. Thanks for loving me enough to make sure I knew how to behave, and that there are things that little girls (and grown ass women) just don’t do. And that EVERYTHING you do has consequences, good and bad. And they come even if you beg them not to. *sigh*
4. You gave me Judaism instead of anger when that kid at school asked me why I killed Jesus. In doing so, you gave me a foundation, a second family, a heritage, answers, questions, books, and traditions. While I’ve wandered around trying to find my place in Judaism, it’s always in me, because of you.
3. You shared your love of music with me, and instilled in me a passion that will never be lost. I don’t remember listening to “kids music”…but I do remember listening to Jimmy and the Wazoo Peach Pitters and My Little Potato. I remember singing along to all kinds of things in the car, and learning to stay on melody while you sang harmony. I remember attending concerts, some I wanted to go to, some not (chamber music? Really?) but always attending. Thanks for showing me a wide world of music to appreciate.
2. You sent me hundreds, maybe thousands of cards and letters anytime I was away. I got more mail than any other kid at camp. Any of them. I got more mail than any other kid at Orme, even though you saw me every weekend. And I was being a terrible human at the time. I got more mail than any other kid at the UJ. Almost every time I opened any mailbox, or when mail was delivered, I had a card or a note or a postcard with your familiar scrawl on it. With your loving words inside it. You made sure that my life always overflowed with love, when we were under the same roof, and when I was off trying to find my way in the world.
1. You gave me roots, and wings. Through all that you’ve taught me, the boundaries
you’ve given, the faith you taught, the music, the family, the internal power…you gave me strong, unshakable roots. These roots have and will continue to keep me solidly planted, no matter how the winds and storms rage around me. I will remain strong because of all the work you put into raising me. And simultaneously, you somehow also managed to give me wings. You let me try things and fail or succeed. You let me push the boundaries. You let me fail. You never tethered me, even though it must have been scary to let me take that first walk by myself to Emil and Jeanie’s, to let me go to Orme, (and listen to me when it was time to come home) to let me go away to school, to let me try and fail and try and try and try again…thank you for always being there to catch me when I fell, to cheer for me when I succeeded, and for always believing in me. Always.
Happy birthday, Mom. I hope I finally got you just the right gift.
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